get high so I don't miss me

have you settled your excuses to turn my love to other users?
like I was some kind of game that you made up the rules
I find it funny the way we swim so far ahead just to drown faster
thought this life would never catch me
thought my heart would never drum that way again
I made a song to sing in vain
On days we could never see the shore
but you took the lyrics, beats and chorus
now I'm drowning on mute
hand me a glass, pass me a vice
I cannot do this otherwise
I cannot face the mirror on my own
and watch my reflex all alone
that's why I drink, to see me double
boy do I make a pretty couple
mood's so low, mood's so shifty
I get high so I don't miss me