needs correction

she had to keep heraelf distracted, whenever there was aomething her heart longed for, whenever she had to  get things done. not that she wished time to go faster, time was uncontralable as far as she kept track of it. the long pile of personal disasters had taught her the way to go through her life: by not paying enough attention, by looking the other eay so that her self destructive invisible hand wouldnt smash her dreams again.